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Lost by the wayside – overstepping limits 227 A: Hit you? Chrisse: Yes, hit me lightly on my arm with the ruler. First I didn’t mind, but now it gets on my nerves. A: You find it difficult then to say no, when it gets on your nerves. And how can you concentrate on the lectures then? Chrisse: Only partially, then I concentrate on one point, and then I withdraw into my fantasy world. A: Do you know the exact point in time when you go into your fantasy world? Chrisse: In arithmetic, when he’s talking and I can’t follow him, then I go into my fantasy world. A: When you’re frustrated because you don’t understand the teacher, you make up a story where you can determine the plot. Chrisse: (taking a calendar out of her bag) I have a calendar where I write all my important appointments. (reading aloud) I went to the hospital, Tuesday I have to do English homework. I’m expecting a text message from a girl I met at the hospital, she wants to see me. On Friday, I’m coming to you. (shows me her school identity card) This is the first time I have an identity card. A: You are showing me you are making a great effort to keep your things in order, as you want to make order again in your head. When it gets difficult, you make up a story. Chrisse: Yes, my story goes like this: I invented a Manga girl, whose mother died. She was stillborn. (reflects) Or more like: her mother died before she was born, and she was cut out of her body. Her father had a wife who was sick, it was life -threatening. He took out her soul so that she would become healthy, but she died. With the girl’s mother, I had only a one -night stand and didn’t know she was pregnant. He took out her soul and she died. When he discov- ered that she was pregnant, he called excellent doctors to save the baby’s life. But she was saved and came in an incubator where she can stay for a long time. Then she was put up for adoption. She comes to three adoptive fami- lies, all three die. It only goes well with the fourth family. There’s a father, a mother, a sister and her. She later discovers that she is half spirit and half human. She has magical powers. A: When you think of the story, you’re thinking of a girl who hasn’t gotten enough in life. She wasn’t a full nine months in her mother’s belly, she came into an incubator, her mother died and she can’t find a secure place. In the story, you are expressing your feeling that you didn’t get enough care and understand- ing. But there is hope, since the girl finds a fourth family, hope that your family can understand you and that I can carry your problems with you and understand them. You are describing a painful and difficult life. Chrisse: (Thoughtful, then takes out a book, the second volume in a series. She seems rather absent.) This is the second volume of a vampire story. (She tells the story in detail.) I want to get the first volume, because I want to know how it began.