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“I think so, too,” she said; “and the priest was saying the same thing. I am so glad my Sepp has always gone to confession so regular, and I feel quite hopeful about his getting well again. Only,” she added very low, “the light keeps flickering to and fro the whole time.” According to popular belief, when the light flickers, it is an omen that someone’s candle is burning low in the socket. I believed in this sign myself, but to reassure the poor woman I said, “There’s such a draught coming through the window, I can feel it too.” She laid the sleeping baby upon the straw—the girl who had fetched me had already gone to rest there—and we stopped the cracks of the window with tow. Then the woman said, “You’ll stay with me overnight, won’t you, Peter? I shouldn’t know how to get along otherwise; and when he awakes you will read to us? I am sure you’ll do us this kindness, won’t you?” I opened the book and looked for a suitable piece, but Father Cochem has not written much that would be of consolation to poor suffering mankind. Father Cochem’s opinion is that God is infinitely just and that men are unutterably bad, and nine-tenths of them are bound straight for hell. Maybe it is so, I used to think to myself; but even if it is one ought not to say so, because people would only worry, and for the rest would most likely remain as bad as ever. If they had wanted to mend, they would have done so long ago. Terrifying thoughts went like a hissing adder through Cochem’s book. Whenever I had to do with indifferent people, who only listened to me on account of my fine loud preaching voice, I thundered forth all the horrors and the eternal damnation of mankind with real pleasure; but when by a sick-bed I used to exert my imagination to the utmost while reading out of the book, in order to soften the hard sayings, to moderate the hideous representations of the Four Last Things, and to give a friendlier tone to the whole thought of the zealous Father. And now again I planned how, while apparently reading from the book, I would speak to Meisensepp words from another Book about poverty, patience, and love towards our fellows, and how the true imitation of Christ consisted in the practice of these, and how—when the last hour should strike —this would lead us by way of a gentle death right into heaven. At last Sepp awoke. He turned his head, looked at his wife and sleeping children, then, seeing me, he said in a loud, clear voice, “So you’ve come, Peter? God reward you for it! But we shall hardly have time for reading to- day. Anne, please wake the children up.”